2 weeks of not churching definitely feels weird.maybe its becuase it s part of my routine,n it seems like smth is amiss when i'm nt doing it.i miss e ppl,ALOT!!!!!.but i don miss god.win liao lor.my walk has been going downhill for a LONG WHILE.god is somehow smth i can do without?i really donno sia.e answer is both yes n no.being luke warm i guess.

these days,i just wanna hav fun n more fun.all e things hav to go my way instead of god's.haiz.
memories ,stinging ones keep bringing me down.n i seriously wanna burn it all up.am i living in pretense all these while.somehow or rather.

i'm totally zapped of energy both physically n spiritually.