shermaine is awfully sick.throbbing headache,running tap flu,infectious / frustraing soar throat.
messy life.mood swings.crazy temper.nothing can be worse than this.

recenlty,i've been angry with e slightest thing.donno wads happening to me.seems like every single lil detail gets on my nerve.there's a desparation in me that i wanna drink till i drop.nv to wake up and face this whirlpool of troubles.freaking crap.

i'm neither happy nor sad.i think anger is eating me up.

chinese new year was pretty boring.started out with bai nian at gu gu's house.once i accomplished my mission of receiving all my ang paos.i rushed to billy's place ,also known as e gambling den.billy n some other fellows gambled for more than 6 hrs until this morning 4++ am.I DIDNT GAMBLE OKAY!!!!!! i merely sit beside billy and watch him play.it wasnt boring at all.infact thru e ganling session.i coulld clearly see for myself their true colours.haha.billy won alot.then four of us went for supper and headed home.rah.i'm still so tired although i slept almost e whole of todae.norm la.stupid idiot.hav to work tmr

reunion dinner was fabulous with lotsa good food.papa whipped up dishes like fresh prawns,hainanese chicken,ngo hiong*e meat roll*,veg compliimented by oyster sauce bao bai n xiang gu.sour veg soup.fried tao kua with prawns n shun.hahaha.

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i missed church todae when i know todae i must be there!like seriously.i did heare irritatin alarm ringing like a zillion times.but i just coudnt gt out of bed.partly because i was sooooo slpy but also because my unwillingness to face god or wad took place.

shermaine is kinda.......feels ........also donno how to describe.this emotion i've NEVER felt it before.sucha strange feeling.hav no clue or wad so ever as to wad word to fill in e blanks.

from todae onwards,shermaine will hav a darkest secret of her life.its a secret she will NEVER tell! i know many will judge.many wil be disappointed.and some of u may hav already guessed it.

god likes to test me.thru words tt i hav spoken.but sad to sae i nv fail to fail him.

spent a bomb

GAN CHIO !!!!

i WANT A VESPA!i mean i wanna ride a vespa real soon.i'm so gonna gt a class 2a liscense if nt a 2b.but e problem is i donno how to convince my parents to let me ride a scooter.though scooter is nt as fatal as a killer motorbike.hahaha.don care.i want.:)

cherie n jill surprise me with oreo cheesecake at work yesterdae...haha.,yums.been sucha long time since i had oreo cheesecake.
bobby ang meng finally visited me at work yesterdae too,after uncountable aeroplanes.hehe...made him hang clothes n buy bubble tea for me.haha.maid la.kidding

suppose to go shopping ALONE at vivo now before meeting mummy at 1++pm.need to buy cny clothes.guess i can onli pop by f21 tmr then

my favourite boy just dampen my mood by his text this morning.james n kc doesnt want to club this sat!SO CRAP.hate it.i really don wan it to be cancellled man.i would be freaking sad la.

people if u're interested in clubbing with me cherie n felicia.beep me okay.

i'm losing faith in you.u make me sad most of e time.

finished all my polaroid films !!!! been taking with loads of ppl these two daes.hahahah.but so sad i don hav a scanner.needa find a way to upload e polariid shots.they're soooooo beautiful.esp e one i took with ben n gang and also e one with billy.
18th birthdae celebration came to an end few mins ago at my house.e celebration at home sucked big time.seriously there's just no meaning lor.

but i had a blast in school todae.THANK YOU BABIES !!!!!SIEW YI AND FENGRU I LOVE E PRESSIES.thank you soooo much for putting in great effort in preparing e presents.i love it.

to everybody who wished me happy birthdae. THANKS MAN!!!!
i was really shocked to receive so many well wishes fr close ones and nt so close ones to strangers.hahahaha.its just nice la.
p.s:i did my eyelesh extensions todae! like FINALLY.

i am very happy todae!!!!!!!celebrated my 18th bdae with my cell grp todae.we went to fish &co.thanks to ppl who came.I REALLY APPRECIATED IT!!!!!!!!

then i head down to cck to join e boys in celebrating my favourite boy ,billy 's 18th bdae.ahha.we made him do silly things.went abit crazy.boy,i can't wait to club with boy,james,kc on sat at zouk.
i think we willall g0 siao lor.

1.sp tourism & resort management
2.NP tourism & resort management
3.NP mass comm
4.SP media com

these are e choices i amde this morning when registering for poly.man.i really hope god place me in e right school.no more room for regrets.god,its all in your hands.

i went to sch on mon AND didnt go for e rest of e week.haha.bo bian.i hate school to e core x1000.my flesh is there but soul is at lala land.wads worst.some teachers choose to treat me as invisible .haha.tts e ugly human nature i guess.who cares anyway.i'm off to poly soon.at least i hope i get into e course i want.IF NOT, its gonna be shit hole for me.

todae,mummy n i went to order my 18th birthdae cake.it was my favourite angie's e choice heavenly chocolate cake.e thought of e thick n finger licking good chocolate makes me go GAGA..
can't wait.this sundae celebration is gonna be awesome.my opinion though.

i wanan club.

i guess many of u have heard rumors,talk,gossips OR even from myself that i'm changing to POLY!!!!!
let me clarify this once n for all.YES ITS TRUE.you arent seeing things or hearing stuff.i have made up my mind.and nothing will waiver my decision.stop persuading me to stay at jjc.you guys don understand how terrible i feel in there.once e posting results are out,i'll quit school IMMEDIATELY.hooray.

super cam whore!!!!

went to np open house.gt to know more bout mass comm.haha.had twister fries .yums.
tok wif jas online was cool.haha.
i cam whored after i returned home.

eff man.its been more than a fucking year.n i'm almost there.nearly done in erasing u fr my effing mind,my stupid memory.yet ,god planned for me to meet u TODAE.wad e hell.why why why?????
always thought i've gotton over u.but todae.e truth speaks .i HAVEN!pictures of us being together racing thru e back of my mind.rah.this is so agonizing.freak man.of all daes,i had to bumped into u when i'm e worst dressed ,withuot my makeup,hair all messed up.summed up in one word.UNGLAM.felt nothing but embarrassed.seriosuly.haiz.meeting u again ,jus jeopardise everything.i'm back to square one.fighting to FORGET YOU FOR GOOD.actually deep down in my heart,i still long for u.i ', just being sucha loser.

4E'O7


B & ME
to B:THANKS FOR E MILK TEA N WINGS.


spent last nite with 4E '07 at ECP bbqing after meetup with da ge.missed e bus stop n took more than an hr to reach.tt really dampen my mood,because i could hav spent more time with my loves.e nite started out quite fun.howeverit turned soured because of all my own doings.i forgot bout B n enjoyed myself with stozer.while B cooked lotsa wings just for me.he kinda grew jealous n pissed for neglecting him.its been a long time since we fall out.we said hurtful stuff.felt like crap.darn confuse now as to why all these would have happened in e first place.B,i really hope we can tok.

yesterdae i also went out with my FAVOURITE da ge was A-W-E-S-O-M-E .we never fail to entertain each other each time we meetup,cracking silly jokes,laughing at each other.hahaha.heart to heart sharing is ALWAYS A MUST. donno why,but we are pretty comfortable in sharing own's darkest secrets/TRUOBLES ,some stuff tt would nv be shared easily with.i really love meetups with him.its meaningful.not just simple "LATTE",for fun onli.i think u guys know wad i'm driving at.

caught e pervertic "yes man" movie together.we we stunned by some scenes of e show.da ge was laughing non stop when he saw e lead actor's butt.haha

as of 2009,alvin n i have known each other for THREE YEARS.how time flies man!another 3 more years to come.:)

i wanan own u guys.man,can't wait to gt my pay

i'm currently quite affected by billy.rah.maddening.
my dae was like a roller coaster ride.
forgive me boy.

pay day is on coming wed!!!!can't wait man.already planning how to spend my cash.i really hope i gt more than 1k .i intend to save 1k n use e remaining.

things i wanan buy wif my kaching:
1.fujifilm chocolate polaroid
2.current polaroid film x 5
3.f21 blazer
4. f21 leather jacket
5.f21 leopard skirt
6.all e cartoon series fujifilm polaroid film
7.stuff fr black clover,spellbound,closet affair,alodge & zstamp
8.vans shoes
9.havaianas slipper
10.clubbing with celine
11.panasonic LX3 (QUITE IMPOSSIBLE LA)

the list goes on and on la.man.i can foresee a big hole in my pocket again.rah.

i spent my very FIRST DAE of 2009 with some crazy ppl,THEM!the ppl who drink their grandma's and mother milk.hahahahaha.sounds wrong.but we laughed alot because of e milk joke.i seriously burst my lungs every single time i'm with them.super duper foursome combo man.hardcore jokers.i love them.onli returned home 10 am in e morning aft havoc with e guys.we mahjoned,movied,suppered!

acting cute!pukes.

fantastic four

i'm e no. 1 retard in this picture la.*cannot believe i actualyl posted it *

trying to be monkeys

super random shot.

pinch fats!

look angelic.hahahaha

omg!!! eyebags!

omg AGAIN!ITS E KILLER DARK CIRCLES

ended 2008 with a loud loud bang